The Troubled Life and Symbolic Death of XXXTentacion
The life, career, and occult symbolism of XXXTentacion and the bizarre circumstances around his death.
The first time I heard of XXXTentacion was after he had been punched in the face while performing a song onstage. After the massive blow, the rapper laid unconscious on the stage as people in the crowd filmed the grotesque scene. Shortly after, videos surfaced online and X was the subject of insults and ridicule. Little did we know, nearly exactly a year later, X would again be assaulted … this time with more permanent consequences.
On June 18, XXXTentaction was shot and killed in Florida in an apparent drive-by shooting and robbery. As his inert body slumped behind the wheel of his sports car, witnesses took out their phones and filmed the grotesque scene. When the videos leaked online, X was, once again, the subject of insults and ridicule. But this time, he was also dead.
A recurring comment about X’s death is that “he deserved it”. There is no doubt that in just a few years, X had managed to anger a whole lot of people. He had a bad habit of assaulting fans who got too close to him during shows, he got into multiple “beefs” with other artists, and he released content that was deemed offensive by many.
In the video “Look At Me!”, X lynches a white kid, a scene that caused a great deal of controversy.
While these traits could describe many rappers, it is the abuse testimony given to police by his ex-girlfriend’s that have lead people to call X a “monster”. Here’s the first part of a long list of alleged abuses:
“The first incident of domestic violence occurred about two weeks later. He slapped her and broke her iPhone 6S, because she had complimented a male friend on his new jewelry. (XXXTentacion later repaired the phone.) Later that day, XXXTentacion left the room and returned with two grilling implements—a “barbecue pitchfork” and a “barbecue cleaner,” she said—and told her to pick between them, because he was going to put one of them in her vagina. She chose the fork. He told her to undress. He was lightly dragging the tool against her inner thigh when she passed out. He did not penetrate her with it.
– Pitchfork, “XXXTentacion’s Reported Victim Details Grim Pattern of Abuse in Testimony“
Mugshot of X in 2016 that was later used to promote the song “Look at Me!”.
Fans of X state that his long list of felonies and his violent behavior are a result of his difficult upbringing and mental issues. Other say that he was a troubled soul and that he had demons. Usually, people mean that metaphorically. But in X’s case, the demons seem to be a little more literal.
Talking With Baphomet
X was part of a new breed of rappers that tends to creep out the old school people: Their faces are full of tattoos of bizarre words and images. They rap about Xanax, suicide, and depression. Their demeanor is reminiscent of zombies (possibly due to the pills they keep popping) and many of them are into dark, occult, satanic stuff. One commercially successful representative of this generation is Lil Uzi Vert (read my article about him here). Another one was XXXTentacion.
Behind X: Baphomet in front of a vulva, surrounded by girls and money burning. Music business.
X was rather open about his connection to Satanism. In his 2016 song I spoke to the devil in Miami, he said everything would be fine, X raps:
“my Lord, I spoke to a Baphomet, he
Said he would save me if I gave him one thing you needed
“What is this thing?”, I pleaded; boy, it’s the key to even, yeah
And as I spoke, my fangs were shown
Taken aback, he smiles and tells me
“What you crave will soon be yours
But what I crave is already mine”
In this song (which eerily begins with the words “It will all be over soon”), X recalls his troubled past and asks the devil to “save him” and “to give him all he can offer”. The devil tells him: “What you crave will soon be yours. But what I crave is already mine”. X then repeats the word “Anima Vestra” which means “your soul” in Latin. Essentially, X tells the devil that he is ready to sell his soul to him.
X with a “Team Satan 666” hat.
The classic one-eye devil horns combo.
Devil horns with a dualistic mask at the BET Awards.
In 2017, X got what he craved: a $6 million deal with Capitol records. This enabled him to buy a $1.4 million mansion in South Florida and a whole lot of fancy stuff.
X was renovating this mansion at the time of his death.
While X was finally able to buy the things he “craved”, he also apparently realized that these things came with some hidden costs, which caused him to threaten to leave the music business several times.
In October 2017, X posted on Instagram that he was terminating his deal with Capitol Records because he’s “tired of this sh*t”.
Unsurprisingly, X was unable to end his contract. He remained signed to Capitol Records and went back to making music. His album — called “ ?” — was released in March 2018 and debuted at #1 on the Billboard 200.
A few months later, X’s life was cut short at the young age of 20. And, whether it was intentional or not, the details surrounding his death are highly symbolic.
X, who wore a “Team Satan 666” hat, died on 06/18/18. In kabbalistic numerology, the number “18” is translated to “6+6+6”, which would make the date of death 6/6+6+6/6+6+6.
Also, everything about his death relates to the material things he got after “selling his soul”. The news reported that X was shot inside his BMW i8 sports car while shopping for a new motorcycle. There was also mention of a Louis Vuitton bag being stolen which reportedly contained thousands of dollars in cash.
Several photos and videos posted online show X’s body inside his car with the doors open. It was almost a grim piece of performance art that could be called “The cost of fame”.
According to dispatch calls, the suspects were described as “two black males wearing hoodies, and the shooter was wearing a red mask”. As stated in countless previous articles, red is the color associated with blood sacrifice in occult circles.
A few months prior to his death, X posted an eerie video on Instagram where he foreshadowed his own death. He even talked about being “a sacrifice”.
Last Instagram live from xxxtentacion before his untimely death #XXXTentacion
In the video X says:
“If worse thing comes to worst, and I f—ing die or some s— and I’m not able to see out my dreams, I at least want to know that the kids perceived my message and were able to make something of themselves and able to take my message and use it and turn it into something positive and to at least have a good life.
If I’m going to die or ever be a sacrifice , I want to make sure that my life made at least five million kids happy or they found some sort of answers or resolve in my life regardless of the negative around my name, regardless of the bad things people say to me.”
Shortly after X’s death, all kinds of eerie social media posts surfaced.
On the night following the shooting, rappers Soldier Kidd and Soldier JoJo posted this picture featuring a red mask on social media. The pic was reportedly taken near the shooting spot. The duo denied any connection with the shooting.
A tweet posted by a bizarre Twitter account, @LeftLoafer, apparently predicted X’s death. According to the timestamp, the message was posted shortly before the news of X’s shooting went public and several hours before he was pronounced dead.
The death scene itself was deemed suspicious by online observers who noticed that there was absolutely no blood or bullet holes anywhere on the body or around the car.
No blood anywhere.
Usually, in these kinds of crime scenes, there are bullet wounds, bullet holes on the car and blood everywhere. This detail led some to come up with theories about X not being dead and that it was all a hoax. Or, maybe he did die, but not from being shot. Maybe the robbery story was a cover-up?
As if all of the above wasn’t disturbing enough, the aftermath of X’s was a sad reminder of the toxic state of pop culture. Here are some examples:
The hashtag #cutforX started trending after X’s death, where trolls encouraged gullible people to cut themselves in tribute to the rapper. Shortly after, some fans posted pictures with X’s name carved on their bodies on Twitter, Instagram, and Snapchat.
A memorial to remember the life of X in Los Angeles turned into a riot as mourners allegedly threw rocks at police who answered with rubber bullets and pepper spray. Fans climbed on cars and on the roof of buildings while those below screamed: “Jump for X!”
Geneva Ayala (the ex-girlfriend who gave the police testimony above) was kicked out of the vigil in memory of X being held in Florida and the tributes she left for him were burned.
Ayala’s IG post about her burned tribute.
The original tribute had 666 written on it.
Everything about X’s death has a dark and sinister aura surrounding it. From the bizarre circumstances surrounding his death to the trolls asking people to hurt themselves in his name, it is as if X’s “demons” tormented him and his memory even after his death.
After asking the devil for “everything he has to offer”, it seemed like X had it all. He even showed signs of wanting to turn his life around and to do some good in his community. Unfortunately, what the devil craved was already his … anima vestra.